I like this quote by Sam Harris on the illusion of free will:
“You are not controlling the storm and you are not lost in it. You are the storm.”
Sam Harris
I used to get angry and frustrated when I could not control how my life unfolded. It was only when I realized that I had no control over it, that things got better.
I wish I had understood this much earlier in my life. Perhaps things will be different for you.