Fear is the cheapest room in the house. I would like to see you living in better conditions.Hafez, Persian Poet
Lovely Birthday Party
Marjaneh and I had a lovely weekend in San Diego celebrating the birthday of one of her grandchildren.
The weather was pleasant. We had dinner out several times and enjoyed walking around Old Town. Our hotel was nice and we were able to enjoy the pool area with family.
Helpful Video on Depression
I endured a major depression about six years ago. It was horrible. I wound up sleeping in my truck and barely able to function. My life was in shambles. I was angry at myself and angry at the world.
A quote that I came across recently has stuck with me: “If you’re always getting angry, you’ll turn your nature against The Way.” I certainly found that to be true.
I remember having dinner by myself one evening at a local Shari’s restaurant. When I went to pay my check the hostess told me someone else had paid it for me – out of sympathy, I suppose. When I look at photographs of myself from that time I simply look sad.
“Depression is incredibly pervasive and thus important to talk about,” he said. “Depression is like the worst disease you can get. It’s devastating.”Dr. Robert Sapolsky
If you want a good introduction to the topic I invite you to review Dr. Sapolsky’s presentation:
Beautiful Meditation by Hafez
The following is a beautiful poem from a Hafez, a Sufi mystic.
I am planning to include this as something that my loved ones will enjoy in the future. It speaks to me deeply.
A copy of the audio recording is here. If you do not have a YouTube subscription, this audio plays continuously without stopping to play advertisements.
Please see the YouTube channel for Samaneri Jayasāra for additional recordings of this kind.
Great Success for Bob
A few years ago I attended a seminar by Dr. Robert Glover on how to lose my Mr. Nice Guy behaviors. A lot of men suffer from this way of thinking and being in the world. It’s incredibly damaging to all concerned.
In that weekend seminar I connected with another man who happened to live close to me. We got together for a couple of hikes and meals and wound up forming a good friendship. We’ve been friends ever since.
It’s been great to see the changes we have both made in our lives. A couple of years ago, he enrolled in graduate school and started working on getting an advanced degree in Education. The work was difficult for him. He was holding down a full-time job in education as well as going to school nights and weekends.
Bob sucked it up and stuck it out. He graduated with good grades and recently was offered and he accepted a much better position as an assistant principal here in Seattle.
It’s amazing to see the progress he has made. He’s dating again but in a much more relaxed, less anxious, way. He’s a man who knows his values and says what’s on his mind. People are free to be themselves around him.
I am happy for my friend. I’m enjoying seeing him making progress on his goals without becoming overly attached to outcomes. That is real freedom.
The Dark Side of Free Will
Many people believe that they have freedom of will. That is, they believe that they are going through life making free decisions at every turn. They may see themselves as the captain of their ship, and therefore worthy of praise when they do good acts, and perhaps, deserving of blame when they act wrongly.
I don’t think praise and blame are great tools for shaping behavior. I do think they influence future behavior, however. Just not always in the way we might hope. I think better options exist. I may offer a post on those options in the future.
A free decision is one that could have been otherwise, at the exact moment when the decision was made. To use an example previously offered by Sam Harris, it’s like looking back on your life and thinking “You know, I could have been a firefighter, instead of a police officer.”
But in fact, if you could somehow rewind the state of the Universe to before you made that decision, you’d still make the same decision. And unless something in the setup (the state of the Universe at the time you made your decision) changed, you would continue to choose “police officer” rather than “firefighter” every time you ran this experiment.
While I don’t believe people have free will, many people do. In my view the widespread belief in free will brings great damage and suffering in the world.
If you wish to do so, please consider this short video by Gregg Caruso on “The Dark Side of Free Will”:
The Bloodstream Sermon
I enjoy this recording quite a bit. A transcription is also available.
The Sermon is written in a very literal manner. Yet it also uses Buddhist terminology without explaining it. This can create confusion on the part of the listener.
Samaneri Jayasāra is a Buddhist nun. She writes:
Bodhidharma is considered the founder of Zen Buddhism in China and regarded as its first Chinese patriarch. He brought the Buddha’s teachings to China from India in 520 AD. While much of his biography may be the stuff of legend and his historicity is still in question, numerous early records speak of him (or someone by the name of Bodhidharma) as a wise and compassionate monk. Whether or not he was ever a living person, the legend of Bodhidharma has made him as real in the Zen tradition as anyone else.
The Chinese Farmer
I enjoy listening to Alan Watts. His model / philosophy of what’s at the bottom of everything has brought me a great deal of psychological comfort.
For the past six months or so, when I go to sleep at night, I’m usually listening to recordings of lectures that he gave when he was alive. Many of the recordings have been set to music and fall into the chillstep genre.
The video below is a very short story by Alan Watts. I like it. It reminds me of the importance of being relatively indifferent to the things that come and go in our lives.
Henry Chills with Grandpa
My daughter asked me to care for her family’s small dog. Henry is a sweet little guy. We had a good few days together. In the evenings, he liked to climb up into my lap and watch a little television.
The following is a favorite quote of mine. The author is L.R. Knost:
“Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. All things break. And all things can be mended. Not with time, as they say, but with intention. So go. Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world waits in darkness for the light that is you.”